I am not sure about you, but I get so tired of life kicking me in the ass on a regular basis. It always seems that in the game of life- I take 2 steps forward and then life knocks me 3 steps back. The last 2 years have definitely been like this for me. I got my vehicle repossessed because of the economic downturn ( I just couldn't afford to keep it) and there has been a constant battle to get decent transportation, ever since. I have one of those jobs in which I need decent, dependable transportation. If I do not get to work, then someone else will take my route and I will get stuck sitting around the shop for a couple of hours, or not working at all. So, my biggest aggravation lately has been the hunt for a decent car that I could afford and that will get me down the road consistently and safely. I bought an old car last summer, a 1995 Honda Civic that is in decent shape, but needs some work. I spent too much money for it (remember that repo on my record) and have had lots of problems with it since I bought it. The darn thing will not stay running and every time we get something fixed, another problem pops up to keep the car from running good, or that keeps me from getting rid of the car. I really think the car is either possessed, or it hates me as much as I hate it. I got it paid off in March and since it was running good, I decided to take it and get a loan on the title so I could buy a motorcycle. The car would not start and it has been causing problems ever since. I have spent almost $600.00 just in the last 3 months trying to get the damn thing to run and stay running. You name it, we have repaired or replaced it - gas cap, spark plugs, battery, fuel filter, fuel pump, muffler... all in an attempt to get the car to pass inspection, and get new tags for this year, plus get me down the road to work and back. We have tried everything short of replacing the computer on the car- which costs too much money, and I would rather sell it for scrap than to spend that much money on this piece of crap car. I have spent entirely too much money on it already. My problem is that I need the transportation to work and back in order to keep my job.My 25 min. commute to the other side of town has now been stretched to 2 hours to get to work on the bus (connections take time) and get some lunch along the way. I take my bike with me on 2 days because I get off work too late to take a bus home, so I get to ride the bike 14 miles home, after a 9 1/2 hour work day. I started doing that last month because I needed to "train for the Hill Country Ride for AIDS" charity bike ride. I am now resigned to doing this because I need to save the money to buy a different type of transportation in the near future. Needless to say, that doesn't leave a lot of time to devote to the book or other things. I spend most of my time resting or playing computer games to help calm me down, but lately the games don't even calm me down. So, I need to find a better way to release this stress, and Voila! this blog is now in existence to help me do just that. I am not sure what to do or where to turn at this point, but I would really like it if LIFE would just leave me alone for a couple of months. I would like to have some peace and get a break from all these problems, so that I can actually get some solutions going. I feel totally defeated at this point and I really don't like that feeling. I want to get just a bit ahead and be able to stay there for a short time before everything falls apart on me again. I know that the RATS have already won the "Rat Race", I would really like to finish the damn race instead of constantly being disqualified for whatever reason.
I am currently trying to decide if I should get rid of this p.o.s. car or keep it and try to fix it. I understand the financial situation, gas prices, bad economy, etc and so I have a big decision to make. I just needed to vent for a few minutes, and relieve some stress. Any suggestions would be greatly appreciated.
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