So, I have most of my stuff here and dont want to organize it yet. Moving is such a hassle and I really dont look forward to unpacking everything to then repack it in a couple of months. I always hate moving and had thought that the house would be where I would stay, but life is always changing and getting in the way. The job is about the same and I have fallen into a completely dull routine of going to work, coming home for a long lunch, going back to work and then back home again to play on the computer for a few hours, then read a little and go to bed (around midnight or 1am). The problem is that I am not doing anything constructive with my free time and can not seem to get motivated to do that. It is just easier to while away the time on that stupid game and let other stuff go. I am spending some of my mornings making flash cards for the terms & definitions I will need to know for the train test...so I am doing a little before lunch while I wait for my bus. I am not sure exactly why I have let myself sink into this lazy mood, and cant seem to find a way out of it. It is getting hot and I am not eager to go outside to do much of anything, other than work; which makes it much more difficult to get motivated.
I got good news from the Dr. last month, I'm still non-detectable and the T-cells are getting stronger, so I dont have to go back for 4 months and we set the appt for my birthday!!!! I'm really twisted!! Life is rolling along in that "same old thing, day after day" mode and I have gotten completely lazy. At the end of the month, I check the credit union account and find that the roomie in Austin had not put the money in there for 2 weeks and it was already the 30th. I sent my friend Chuck over the check the place out and see if Mike was around to chat, meanwhile I tried calling and got no answer. I did manage to get his friend Logan to call me back and tell me that he was not going to be moving in after all. It seems his girlfriend was pregnant and they wanted a bigger place. I also got the message (from Chuck) that the house was empty and the power was turned off, and Mike was obviously avoiding me. Chuck spent a couple of days cleaning up the place and talking with a real estate agent about the possibility of selling it or renting it again. Reality check: there are lots of things that need to be done to the house to sell it & there is no money in the budget for any of them. I also need the income from the house in order to pay all the bills (there & here). So, once again, I am stuck in the middle of a catch 22. It seems that most of my life has been in that mode ~ need ____ and dont have ___ , cant get ___ because I dont have ___ ?!?! It is just so very frustrating and annoying to always be stuck in the middle with no visible way out.
I posted the situation on facebook and started the search for someone to rent the house, and we also started the process to try to sell the house (just in case we couldn't rent it). First issue was a water heater that needed to be replaced before the gas could be turned back on. The refrigerator needed to be cleaned out and the house needed a good cleaning. Chuck got started on that and a couple of other friends helped him get these things done; meanwhile, I am stressing out in Dallas because my success up here depends on Austin being successful. I really love that house and do not want to sell it, but if I have no other option, then I will do what needs to be done. I spoke with the realtor and told her exactly that, so she knew what the situation really was. She started working on it, and did a good thorough walk through with Chuck, to determine what really needed the most attention first. Got a few folks interested and started talking to them about the situation and what we really needed to get someone in there, and after almost a week we finally got someone that could move in. This will get the budget under control as soon as they start paying rent.
The reason this is such a big deal is that last month, I managed to read the holiday schedule wrong & was late for work on Memorial Day (which screwed up my holiday pay & the extra money involved in that) and so now the paycheck would be short. Add to that the shortfall from Austin, and you now understand why I was on the verge of panic. The house payment is automatically deducted from the credit union the day after the paycheck goes in, so I now needed to find the money to pay my other bills. I managed to juggle a couple of them around and will be able to float along for 2 weeks until I get some money from Austin. The folks moving in will begin that process in the middle of the month (just in time to save the budget) and start paying then. I am squeaking by until then and barely able to pay all the other things along the way.
I have been talking to my friend Zina about her extra car. We have discussed the issue of me taking over her payments when I can afford to. This is an ongoing discussion we started back in December, and it is still being put on hold, yet again. Every time I get close to being able to afford the car, something happens to destroy my budget and I have to start all over again. Maybe this is a sign that I really shouldn't get that car from her? I need to think about this for awhile, or maybe just get out of GOD's way???!!!
Something to think about while I drive my life away!!! Look out now, I got you caught up and now let's roll on down the road.
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